Loving Birth

On Wednesday, I had a revelation, it came after I got a rebuke from the Holy Spirit. As I was feeling bad for myself the Holy Spirit spoke to me and said, "you need to give this baby a loving birth!" "Yes, Lord I do". I, then, knew in my heart that I needed to LOVINGLY birth this child as I had with all the others, no differently. I love this baby and because I love her I will give her the same beautiful, loving birth. I know her spirit is no longer in this body, but I will treat her birth the same as my others. I will lovingly birth her naturally and without drugs. I will choose to have a great attitude about being at the hospital and I will show my love the way I did to my other three children, during their births. Her life is just as important. Her spirit is just as alive. She just gets to see Jesus before we do. God got me to stop looking at me in the situation and to see that I would want her to have beautiful birth. It's not about me anymore.