I wasn't ready for you to go

"Jaden, I wasn't ready for you to go". I said this out loud one day and I heard in my spirit..."when would you be ready for her to die? When she is 1, when she is 2, when she's 18?".Lord, you're right I would never be ready to say goodbye to my baby. I guess this is easier for me than if I had a relationship with her like I do with my other children. Then I would be losing a child and a relationship.There are many questions that go through my mind as well as others when there is a loss of someone so precious.